Petulant

Petulant -insolent or rude in speech or behavior. 2. : characterized by temporary or capricious ill humor : peevish. — pet·u·lant·ly adverb.

 This is the word that best describes Amanda right now.  I'd hate to think that this was her permanent personality...I'd hate to think that she exhibited this demeanor to people other than family...but, I know this is who she is with us.  

  

Find a Positive Memory Every Day

I am usually a positive person so doing a posting a day would be a rather negative journey.  Raising a very good teenager should be a piece of cake.  But, my very good teenager is also an opinionated, stubborn, non-communicative, strong willed young woman.  There is no real talking to he, she knows everything, she is always right and she has to have the last word.  It makes documenting the positive difficult.  Perhaps I should change my journey from 'A Thought A Day' to "Find a Positive Memory Every Day'. 

A Thought A Day

Perhaps the best way to remember the year is to post a thought a day....I'm sure I will skip some days but I'm going to try and keep on track.  

So, my thought for today is on projects.  I have so many in the Que and my mind keeps conjuring up additional ones that I want to do.  There is an urgency to these thoughts and plans.  Why?  Well, time is marching on.  As I sit and write this I see my hands typing away and I see...I see the aging...the veins becoming more prominent, the  skin a bit drier and crisscrossed with a few more creases each day.  And it is these hands that I need to create, and the eyes that are seeing a bit less clearly that I need to transfer the thoughts to fabric or paper or computer.  It's the mind that has such clarity and sharpness at one moment and then, with the blink of an eye, the edges blur and the thought disappears behind a veil of years.  So....I hope I remember to place a thought a day here!

I watched The Quilt Show this morning and they had the episode with Susan Carlson on it. Wow! I have always loved her work but seeing how she creates her collages and how she steps outside of the box is so inspirational! It makes me want to cut all my stash into little pieces, throw them into bins or cases and collage away!

I used her first book to make a collage of a fish for Owen. Her second book has a Mandela, moon and sun and many more exciting images. I wonder if I can do a series of pillows for the sofa when we move? They would certainly be colorful and fun. Just another thing to add to my already too long list of wanttodo's!'

Why don't I have more time to do these things I want to do? Retirement isn't what I thought it would be. Wonderful? Yes! Productive? NO!